wrecked feelings©

Just say what you mean

I know words mean nothing.

So teach me to understand

Make me feel what you can't feel

Show me what I can't comprehend

But don't tell me to go,

Please dont' push me away

Because if I don't see you at all

I'll never get you out of my mind

When you're not in front of me,

I see you in my thoughts,

Always hear you in my head

If you don't love me,

Hate me

Make it easier to get over you

Help me forget my feelings

So I can love myself again

I'm tired of feeling

Let me be numb from it all

Be disconnected from the hurt

Lose everything that reminds of you

Happy, sad, all of it gone

It's useless to recall any memories,

What'd be the point? Why must I?

To get a moment of joy?

I'd rather be consistently downcast

Than fleetingly feel happiness

Not really experience it, just pass it by

I wouldn't want that for myself

Life would be unbearable

A living nightmare, consuming pain

I refuse to got through hell again

C.M. de Leon

(2008)

unchanging, undying©

I'll take back what I've said

A chance is all I need now

Return to days we both felt alive

Reach out with me, remember who we are

We can break the walls that cause this pain

Mopping up this mess with picture perfect smiles,

Wouldn't change how I feel

Because I know that inside, you're still the same

Don't make all of my decisions for me

I admit that what I'd chosen was wrong

But I'd do it all again for you

Whenever I see your tears,

I feel my heart starts to bleed

Time I spent thinking of you,

Leaves me hoping for so much more

All you have to do is try

For our lives are too short to be uncertain

Please all I'm asking for is love

To cure me of my sickness

This irrevocable longing for you

Yet you never seem to have enough

Why can't you just love me back?

Just one more time

C. M. de Leon

(2008)

don't make it rain©

I'm drowning in my sorrows

Bury me in my secrets

I'm being left in my pain

And my dreams are being taken away

I never said it would be easy

It's tough and it gets tougher

Falling down where you belong

Was never suppose to end like this

I wish I could be you

Happy and only getting happier

Never felt a rush of pain

Always walking in the rain

Though your absence makes me sad

I've always been jealous of what you've had

Guess it wasn't meant to be

It was never you, and always me

C. M. de Leon

(2002)